life at the moment...

This year there are many ups and downs..
i dunno why im updating my blog but since im free, i might as well juz update it..
this week i wasnt feeling too happy about myself..
not able to win any gold medal for my sports day definately is one of the main cause of it
i think the main reason is also bcuz of my arrogance and im reli sad about myself
for my love life, well it isnt goin so well...
nowadays im getting easily emotional and maybe jealous at times
i dunno why everytime i sms wit her, it almosts seems like an argument is about to follow up next..
times i feel like crying after smsing wit her
my heart is hurting and i dunno wat to do...
all im reli asking now is that i can keep my emotional intact so that i wun let my bad side shown out to ppl..
i dunno wat is happening to me nowadays...
not paying attention in school, failing subjects..
im disappointed wit myself for being wat i m nowadays!
Lord, i pray that u help me to not be wat i m now...
times i feel like crying i hope u will put back the smile onto my face so that i can live a happy life from now onwards... Amen!