One Word...

One Word

That best describe me now...

Is hard to find bcuz

The amount of pain u given me...

Will cause me to be hurt

for at least a short period of time...

By the time i am all over about this

I'll be too afraid to love anymore

Bcuz of the wat u did...

I will never forget the way u treated me...

But i am stil wondering,

why tell me at the beginning,

when u weren't ready to commit..

U left me wondering

all that has happen,

without any answer to comfort myself...

Tell me wat do u expect me to do?

When i fell,

no one picked me up...

When i finally stand up,

the pain was stil there...

So now wat's the best word to describe myself?

"Crushed"

If...

If a vegetarian eats only vege...

Wat does a humanitarian eat?

~THE MAN~

VBS!!!!

For the past whole week i was reli exhausted staying in church!!
Imagine working 20 hours a day and only getting to sleep for 3 hours and 30 minutes....

(if u're figuring out what happened to the 30 minutes, i used it in the toilet to shower...)

It was tiring but i rather enjoyed it seeing kids dancing, shouting, playing and also eating..

I was a helper so i had to take care of a group and bcum their group leader...

I was in RED group..

There was this boy by the name of Joshua Lim in my group and i was rather afraid of him bcuz i was told he was consider a "special child" and a very hyperactive boy!

But to me, he was juz normal and very very cute!!

During this stay in church, i learned how to play Taboo, ping pong, uno stacko, mad magazine and also twister!

On thursday nite, we had buffet appreciation dinner at Dorsett Hotel...

The only thing i know how to eat at this buffet dinner was OYSTER!

The teacher who brought us there said,"It's all worth it if u eat many oysters"

So i did!

I ate 10 of them even though it might not taste that nice, it's expensive!

After the dinner, we went to play bowling in times square!

When we reached there, it was like 10.30 and shops were all closed!

I thot we had wasted our energy walking from Dorsett to Times Square...

Thank God it was stil open and i won the first game!

My score was 115 and the second game i lost, my score was 102!

Not bad for a person who hasnt touched a bowling ball since 8 months ago!

This year my group won!

All the children in my group is very good boy and good gal wan!

Love Them Very Much!

Especialy Joshua Lim!

Besides good memories there is of cuz bad ones as well...

I wanted to take Joshua's photo today which was the last day and my camera's battery was exhausted!!! I was like OMG!!!!!

Another thing that bothers me is that the other boys who also stayed in church was very hamsap! Raping!!! Molesting!!!

No matter wat...

I stil returned home stil being a virgin! LoL!

K la, thats all i gotta say...

Bye!

tHe mAn....

Happy Birthday Uncle!

Yesterday i went to this restaurant called HALIA and it was kinda nice..

It was to celebrate my uncle's birthday!!

Its located in the Sime Darby Convention Centre in dunno where...

The food here is kinda delicious cuz this place is famous for their BabiQ stuff..

We were served different varieties of meat EXCEPT PORK cuz this place is halal...

I think if any vegetarian who comes to this stall, they hav nothing else to eat cuz most of the stuff here is meat except for bread la...

Let's talk less and show more k...!

this is me wit sumtin called the chocolate "fondu"(me duno how to spell it)

now this is me wit my grandma and err...my sister?? LoL!

this is me wit the man at the moment....My Uncle who turned 70 this week!

(how about a round of applause?)

Now let's introduce my sweetheart...i mean my mum! ^^

k la, that's all from me from this post...i know im kinda like wat people are often using nowadays, a camwhore or sumtin la....wadeva it is, i wun be blogging for a week cuz i will be away in a camp in church for a week till next friday...so sad la...no comp....haih...!

Bye Bye!

THE MAN

Can my life be any better??

Today has been a boring day or rather a meaningless day for me...
I skipped my english class today cuz i rather watch liverpool's match from 3.40am till 5.50am...
Im so upset wit Liverpool for losing when i woke up in the middle of the night juz to watch them lose the game...
Yes, liverpool lost again to the same club that beaten us twice this season..
I wish i cud go back to the past and continued my sleep cuz my mum actually was willing to giv me RM30 and my favourite char siew pao in the morning,

only IF i wud hav gone for my english class today!!!

Haih!! Wasted!!
Dun consider that as "rasuah" k, cuz every morning i usually get my char siew pao if i go for this english class and RM30 is actually my weekly pocket money which she stil dint give me yet...

After waking up in the morning, i onlined the whole day expecting

"someone" to be online which that "someone" wasnt...

it makes me feel kinda sad!

Nevertheless, i shud always thank God and always look at the positive side of things...
For Example:~

Liverpool only lost in the league cup!

or

RM30 isnt much!

or

Char Siew Pao stall might not be open today...

or

I can stil see her online another day!

or

I'm not dumb, but I'm juz plain stupid!!!

Love,

It makes me realize something reli important

that it doesnt always go the way u want it and

sometimes it takes a whole lot of sacrifices to succeed in it

and the winner is often the one who is willing to sacrifice the most...

Wat else to say??

Err...

Im stil waiting for her to tell me sumtin(even if it isnt going my way)

Cuz i know, its better to know the truth than to hide it....

I dunno if it hurts u but it definitely hurts me in the inside for not knowing the whole truth...

cuz..

and

i know sooner or later,

and u know that

By:~{~tHe mAn~}

Life sucks after skewl!

Why skewl is over so quickly when the mood of merdeka after PMR is only getting started??

Haih....!

English classes are killing me!!!
Waking up at 6 am(cuz my sista stil got skewl...) and then attend this class is definitely not my ideal of learning...
Im wondering where's my freedom after PMR?? Why do i stil need to study??
Well, if next year i return to skewl speaking english "British" style, it will all be worth it..^^
But for now, trying to tell myself that it will all pay off once i speak English fluently!
Till then, im stil hating the English Classes!!!

Another thing that is bothering me is the fact that skewl is over, no more PE lessons, and im starting to get...

FATTER!

Argh!! Hate it when i talk about this cuz it isnt sumtin im proud of...

Well, i wun tell u my weight at the moment cuz its juz out of the so call "average" weight...

Today was my uncle's birthday so as usual my grandma will cook lots of good food

(which deserves a 5 star rating)

Sometimes i wonder whether i can practise self control or not...

The moment the food is served on the dinner table, my hands juz cant stop scooping all those delicious food onto my plate and at the end, it all ends up in my stomach...

So, if u're my close frens or viewers of this blog, please give me some opinion to lose this weight of mine cuz i dun wan to look ugly in public!

(please dun giv me s2pid ideas like changing my grandma wit urs) swt!!

That's all from me today, this is the first time i dint talk about love cuz no mood mah..

Tataz!

~THE MAN~

Lyrics Of Jenny By Click 5

She calls me baby, then she won't call me.

Says she adores me and then ignores me.

Jenny, what's the problem?

She keeps her distance and sits on fences.

Puts up resistance and builds defenses.

Jenny, what's the problem?

You leave me hanging on the line.

Every time you change your mind.

First You say you won't, then you say you will.

You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.

We're standing still, Jenny.

You got me on my knees.

Jenny, it's killing me.

She needs her own space.

She's playing mind games.

Ends up at my place saying that she's changed.

Jenny, what's the problem?

I'm trying to read between the lines.

You got me going out of my mind.

First, you say you won't, then you say you will.

You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.

We're standing still, Jenny.

You got me on my knees. Jenny, it's killing me.

It's killing me. It's killing me.

Jenny.

First, you say you won't, then you say you will.

You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.

We're standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.

Jenny.

First, you say you won't, then you say you will.

You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.

We're standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.

Jenny. It's killing me. It's killing me. Jenny.

Well, it sucks being me at the moment...

Wit no one to talk to about my so call "troubles"...

That's life isnt it?

~THE MAN~

Words to comfort myself..

This week has ups and many downs for me...
I wish there were more ups than downs but it seems like my life is juz falling from bad to worst!!!
Let's see, this week my parents forced me to go for english classes to IMPROVE my english...
Do u know why???
This is all thanks to the piano concert last sunday!!!!
They think the way i speak and the words i used was TERRIBLE!!
Actually, for the first time i agreed wit wat they are telling me cuz i haven been so embarass in my entire life!!
Phew....!
Im glad it's over now and i hope i wun make those mistakes again...

Another thing that bothers me is the fact, I LOST A POOL MATCH against my frens on the last day of skewl!
Well, as u know in one of my last post, i said that henry has got no talents at all, remember??
It was proven after jw and bak asked him to partner me against them!
Henry, u might hav tried ur best but ur best is definitely not even close to the "noob" standard of pool!

Wat else...
Oh yea, vbs is next week! Hav to stay in church the whole week to help little kids...
Im definately looking forward to meeting sum1 in vbs and her name is Jane Cheong!!!
She's the cutest gal i hav ever seen on earth!! Trust me, u will be stunt be her "cuteness"
Dun worry gals, she's only 8 and she will definitely be in my group this year due to her closeness wit me! ^^

Wana talk about love again ar?
Hrmm...
Today no mood to talk about it wor, how le?
Let's just say i stil like that sum1 even though i haven heard or receive a single thing from her since last week...
Hope she's happy at the moment cuz if she's happy then i will be happy too!
Cant wait to hear from her someday...

The End

By,

~THE MAN~

(Continuation of my last post..)

I do not know wat to do cuz....

I'm Just Clueless At The Moment

after my piano teacher told me something unpredictable!!

Well, this is only the beginning of a very long journey...

I hope it goes as what i planned!

That's all from me now, hope u guys enjoy reading my blog!

Bye for now!!

Miss you guys from skewl!

Hope skewl during 2009 will be a better and more fun!!!

~(THE MAN)~

Is it my fault or is it urs?

I shall "KISS" for this post so that i can go get my nap after this..
KISS means Keep It Short n Simple! So dun think other stuff especially JW cuz there isnt any gals here for me to kiss...(unless u stil consider my grandma as a gal lo)
Well, after all my post i realize i hav mistaken all along...
To think back, i think i was kinda "sot sot" or weird in most peoples language cuz

"From the beginning, i thought she changed her mind but actually it wasnt..."

Cant bliv this but my piano teacher told me everything which i hope was true....

(i actually sacrificed my outing to times square to watch james bond wit my frens to know this...)

Now that i know, i do not know wat shud i do cuz...

(will be continued...)

Sorry cuz i gotta go to take my nap now before my parents finds out that i kept on online till they return from work!

I'll Be Back!

~THE MAN~

Is LOVE worth DYING for?

Cant bliv im talking about this...

BUT it's TRUE that many human beings will commit suicide facing problems that they could not solve and definately "love failure" is one of them...
There are many different types of love, and the greatest of them all is "Unconditional Love"
This love can cause human beings to do all sorts of funny things and even dangerous things that cud harm anothers life...
When sum1 loves another person wit an "unconditional love", he/she will do anything just to get their way and this basically involves acts like killing, raping(for guys only), committing suicide and many other things that u wudnt possibly think of...
Scary isnt it??
When there is a love failure, first thing a person cud ever think is committing suicide bcuz they wudnt wana go thru it all again or think of it anymore(well that's wat i think unless u can find a better reason) From that day on, they will always be afraid to try to be in another relationship bcuz they cudnt afford to fail again...
God made us with only one heart that pumps blood into our entire body, so that we cud love sum1 and once it bcums weak, there's NO CURE for it anymore. Therefore, we shud always be wary or know the possible outcome of being in a relationship..

Well, im not trying to scare u but to warn u that love takes a long time to bond like spaghetti takes a long time to cook but the End Result will always be good!(sorry yea, for using spaghetti as an example cuz im kinda hungry at the moment) hehe!

So "appreciate" the one u love most starting from now on so that NONE of wat i hav said will occur in anyones life...

So my conclusion for this post is that,

NO, Love is "not" worth Dying for!

~THE MAN~

Im stil waiting, you know...

WooHoo! Fourth post edi!
I cant bliv i stil got the "semangat" to blog even though blogging 4 times in the same week!

Yesterday, went to watch HSM3 in Times Square wit my close buddies Jia Wing aka garnett and also Seng Chang aka mcgrady. Not forgetting my "not so close" fren as well, Henry aka Square. I think if Naim reads this blog, he will be like:~

"Wow! HSM3 rocks wei! U got watch Zac Efron do this ar? U got watch Zac Efron do that ar?"

Swt...!

To me, i rate it 5 out of 10 since Batman was only rated 8 out of 10 when it was that good!

Me and my frens+not so close fren played pool before and after the movie and i can tell u one thing is for sure, Henry has got No Talents in pool!(actually, i dun remember him having any talents)

I dint wana say this but me and bak's partnership help us sweep pass JW and Square without even sweating! (well, it was freezing there, so we cudnt possibly sweat even if we want to) lol!

Now back to my love life, since my blog's url begins with "lifelesswithoutlove" so viewers definately expects me to talk about love rite?

the mistake i made

actually

then..

but..

Conclusion...

Now, there's stil this QUESTION going thru my mind,

If u read it, you will finally understand how i feel.....

Written by,

~The Man~

Coincidence or Destiny? U tell me...

That's my title for this third post of mine,

You guys must be wondering why this title?

Well, for those who know, yes'day was my big day bcuming an MC for my piano teacher's concert

On my way home, I went to this restaurant call the "Lucky Sin" wit my aunty and older bro for dinner, and suddenly out of nowhere, her family appeared!

I was like "WoW!!"

Im not joking!!

Before that, I actually hoped of meeting her again but not as soon as I expected!!

When i was in the car, i felt reli sad eating the whole 200g bag of gummy gummy and also drinking lots of 100 plus, thinking of wat i hav done wrong and why is she avoiding me back stage....

And till now, I stil dunno the answer....

I tried msging her asking why but she never replied me....

I wonder she ever give a damn about me or not cuz when we were at our table, i noticed that she dint even take a look or even a glance to the table where we were sitting, as though i was invisible!

Now i wished i was actually invisible so that no one can see how i feel at the moment which no word can describe....Well, this pic describes partially of wat im feeling now and i dunno whether to thank God for putting u in my life or blaming Him for my sorrow after meeting u...

If there was an potion or medicine to cure this, i will do anything to get it to forget everything that has past...Well, this is the pic that speaks my heart out, I hope you read this blog and understand it..

~(THE MAN)~

Currently feeling

~Heart Broken~

FiNallY iT's OvEr!!

Yeh, everything is now officially over!!
No more worries till next week!(next week will be preparing for VBS which means Vacation Bible School)

So in this blog, I hope to talk about wat I hav done since I last blog....
Where shud i start??
So much to talk about but such little time....
Well, i composed a new song(in two days...) which doesnt hav a title yet

The song's lyric is as follows....

When you saw my face, you walked away,
When you looked at me, you kept on laughing,
Do you know,

Chorus
I gave my all,
I'll catch you when you fall,
I gave my best to you....
I hope we can start something new

When I walked by you, you turned away,
When I called your name, you're not list'ning,
Do you know,

(repeat chorus)

And so it is....
I do not wana say wat Actually inspired me to write this song,
but i think the lyrics is kinda meaningful, that's why i asked my piano teacher to allow me to play this song during the piano concert...
Which turned out to be kinda nice except for the ending which i totally screwed up!!

And wat's wit me asking about "Do you have a girlfriend??"
I know this question sounded simple, but i asked a 5 year old kid!
Haih...wat m i thinking nowadays?

In this blog, i wud also like to talk about the word "TEARS"
Well the way i wud define tears is remembrance of something important that has gone...
Why wud i say that?
Bcuz every single drops of tear u shed, it reminds you of that important something that has gone
The more you cry, the more u remember of that thing u love most...
For the song, "Big Girls Don't Cry" by Fergie
It is absolutely rubbish to be honest, cause all humans including male and female, we all do cry no matter wat...
Rite?? Rite??
Today, for an example, I ate the whole 200g of gummy gummy bought from Famous Amos(which was suppose to be shared with WY and MX), drank lots and lots of 100 plus and tried to sleep my way into forgeting all these stuff...
The last sentence "forgetting all these stuff" is not refering to the concert but sumtin else of cuz...
I wudnt wana forget this concert cuz it "will or could" be the last one ever....
I hope it doesnt end like this....

Ladies and gentlemen, when i type (......) means im kinda sad okay, not that I like to end my sentences wit dots

On Saturday,

I played piano for my tadika!

I was an ex student from this tadika that's why im invited to play lo...

It was kinda exciting cuz I had to play solo for like 10 minutes on the stage

but to many maybe I reli played like a SOLO!!!

Okie, this is all I gotta say for now cuz im going to save my emotions for my next post!
Cuz my next post will be something bigger and better!
Bye for now!!

~(THE MAN)~

aka

Kelvin

Current emotion

Still Sad